Imperfect words and short-lived thoughts...

I started writing this blog in hopes of sharing some of my ideas, to try and turn each and every event (from the generously happy to the tragic) into knowledge, and wisdom, which anyone can grasp and use however they see fit. Another reason is that I love writing, whether it is short stories, novels, or just expressing my direct thoughts.

However, after some time and articles here I found this activity to be meaningless. The first reason is the lack of words that can express a human being and his inner world. Of course, I am fully aware that English is not my native language, and even if it is, languages, in general, have so many layers and depth. No matter how much I improve my native Bulgarian, I don't think I can ever find the right words, the exact words, holding as much meaning and clarity as I want to. For instance, try describing love. Hundreds of generations of poets and authors have tried, and to some extent, they have succeeded. The rose became the symbol of love and women's beauty, but not a small proportion of people today see it as a cliche (like many other symbols of love). Maybe this means the explanation of love is not enough, it is not full, and it does not resonate with the love a person actually experiences. Thus maybe it is better for people to stop trying to explain the unexplainable and just act out love! Maybe it's not that words are imperfect, but that our feelings and psyche are too great, too abundant, to be translated through speech.

The other reason I didn't post anything in my blog is because some of my ideas and viewpoints are becoming short-lived, or should I say "short-supported". At the moment I feel in some way or have reached some kind of overwhelming inspiration and I decide to share it. However, just some weeks or months later, I may not agree with my past conceptions. It's kinda like reading old chats with a teen crush. (ok, that is way too cringy of an example, but I don't care). There is a good side because through my blog I can detect my personal growth maybe. At the moment of writing, I have a certain amount of knowledge and a set of experiences which I use for creating the posts. Thus how it is fair for any creator to blame himself/herself for past creations, when he/ she looks at them from a future perspective, with way more wisdom and a totally different mindset which the past self didn't have? Isn't that too harsh and unfair? It is a sign of progress, so maybe there is no need to be nit-picking, because we always do our best, no matter the circumstances!

Maybe this is why I found some motivation to write today. If each level of me that you see through my blog articles can inspire you, then it would be meaningful. Also if writing articles itself makes me happy, then why should I care about the results? The results as motivation are something I will probably talk about pretty soon! Perfection is accepting imperfection, so I will keep writing as long as it makes me feel well.

Stay healthy, true to yourself and enjoy the process of life!